Parekoi

Finally we are on our own…

We moved to a new apartment 2 weekends ago. It’s just a roughly 600 sqft studio unit with a seperate sleeping area. Not much of a luxury but still I was much ecstatic about the idea of having a place I can call our own. We are paying more than $700 for this small unit (yeah, as what you can expect, living here in the US is really expensive. I am tired of converting to peso nowadays cause it is making my head aches). It has a refrigirator and a full kitchen with stove to start with, a small bathroom with tub and hot shower, and a big closet that serves as the divider for the sleeping area/bedroom. Nope, the apartment is not yet furnished, we have to start buying things to fill it up. For a start we bought a bedframe with matress and a small loveseat/couch. It’s not that easy though. These furnitures will be delivered to you in pieces and you have to assemble it. Well my hubby is there to do that job. I’m just there to assist.The apartment still looks bare and we still to do some shopping here and there. As of now we just subscribed for an internet connection  to keep me busy during the day(we don’t have a TV yet! But we are already planning to buy one :-p ).

I know… the term is related to animals, but it’s the only word I can think of right now to describe my status..

Yeah… domesticated in a way that I am now tamed to live a life far from what I’m used to…I have been a always exposed to a busy life in the city. During college I was so busy with studying (at some point working at the same time) and did not even had a real summer vacation for myself (always did some advance or back subject back then). After graduation, I barely had a rest… I was made to sign a job contract that gave me less than a month to start (that was immediately after my graduation).  And of course, as an employee at this IT company, expect that you’ll have not much time to bum around (I was rolled in to a project on my 2nd day…imagine that! even before trainings/ orientations and all such stuff…). Though my life seems to be a bit fast and all occupied back then, I can say that I am much contented with what I have…

But as they say, life has it’s own way on telling us what to do next… All of a sudden I need to make sudden and big decisions that would entirely change everything… First is getting married, second is quiting my job, and third and the biggest decision of all is leaving everything in the Philippines and moving to the US to be with my hubby…

Well probably most of you would say, "gee she’s goddamn lucky to be in the land of milk and honey"… Well it’s not exact what I feel.  I don’t know if it’s the influence of being a nationalistic that my University somewhat instilled in me or is it just me being so much afraid to face the unknown…Probably a bit of both…

And so now, I’m here, as I said DOMESTICATED in a way that I literally stays at home almost the whole time, do some household chores (which I really hate!!! except for my love for cooking). Do some stuff like learning to do presentation, editing pictures, browsing around the net and the like… I don’t know how long I’ll stay this way and sometimes I really don’t care. It’s just that sometimes I realize that everything is much different now…

I remember some words in one of the Leadership Conference sessions I attended:

TRADE-OFFS and NON-NEGOTIABLES

Maybe I believe that your own family, the family that I am starting to build is a ‘NON-NEGOTIABLE’ in my life, and whatever the ‘TRADE-OFF’ is (leaving my career, leaving my friends, leaving my family, leaving the life that I’s so used to…), I will still choose the circumstances that I have now…

In the end, all is a matter of priority…

I have been planning to start posting blogs way way back… however since for security reasons, my former company (currently im employed as a housewife..hehehe) blocked friendster and eventually restricts/limits internet access…and thus my blogging potential was set aside… However with my current situation (with me doing nothing all day but to be with this laptop), I decided to pick up where i left of…. and so start my blogging journey..